Gotta Stay High

            You’re gone and I’ve gotta stay

            High all the time

            To keep you off my mind

            Spend my days locked in a haze

            Trying to forget you babe

            I fall back down

            Gotta stay high

            All my life

            To forget I’m missing you

            That is the heartbreaking chorus to Tove Lo’s song “Habits”. Unfortunately, the verses aren’t anywhere as good and contain, uh, questionable content (understatement). But the chorus is perfect in its imperfection.

             Because while the singer believes it’s because of the guy that she’s like this, it’s not. He was just the catalyst for her to bare her soul to the world. He was just the mirror for her to see who she truly is, if she would but look.

             She’s empty. She’s nothing.

             She looks around for affirmation of herself, and she found it for a fleeting second in a relationship. The glorious freedom she experienced was truly a drug. Someone loved (or at least said he loved) her, and there’s nothing like it.

             But then he was gone, and her security and value disappeared with him. This broke her, and the despondency was too much to bare. She has to alter her reality through other fleeting highs to keep going.

              That’s why relationships are so dangerous. They are but little models of the real, true relationship we should have with God. And just like our relationship with God, they offer joy, peace, and value, just on a much smaller and imperfect scale.

              Unless you want to end up like her, start and build a true relationship with God before you jump into one with an imperfect human being. He’ll be your rock that will never leave you. He’ll be your security and worth. You don’t have to stay high all the time to forget Him because He’s always there with you.


(An hour after I posted this, I came across Proverbs 31:6-7, "Give strong drink unto him that is ready to perish, and wine unto those that be of heavy hearts. Let him drink, and forget his poverty, and remember his misery no more" (KJV). Getting high to forget pain isn't new)